A day of food...peak week

As I navigate through my peak week (6 days out) I am doing this food thing on my own. I have had several people help me but ultimately I am going with what I know and how my body reacts to food. 

For today I will drink 2 gallons of water plus about 1400+ calories of food with a macro ratio of 40% protein 25% carbs and 35% fat - all natural foods no sweeteners no protein powders. 

For ease of my life I have a food prep service prepare all of my meals and deliver them to me...check her out Meal Prep Services...amazing - so simple so easy so yummy and very reasonable priced. 

For this week since I cannot have protein powder I am having 6 meals a day based around chicken and filet mignon - I do not eat fish. I will tell you after my competition I will be participating in several meatless meals - I need more variety and less chicken for a while haha. 

So here is my food for the today: 
Breakfast: chicken ~ oatmeal ~ 24 almonds 
Snack: chicken and green beans and my fav peanut butter 
Lunch: chicken salad no dressing YES I keep up with fiber and ruffage to keep my system going
Snack: chicken again and blueberries rice cake and very little pb 
Dinner: guess??? Yeah chicken and veggies 
Snack: oatmeal 

The meals are not horrible but just the same stuff everyday. I enjoy variety in my food and having choices. 

Here is most of my food for the today..I won't bore you with too many pics...I mean chicken is chicken haha.. 

So as I look forward to 1 more meals
today...I hope all of you are enjoying your day. 

Today we did go see the movie Inside Out along with a little walking and shopping with my mom (we did get the girls backpack for school). 

Enjoy relax and chat soon 

Silence....sitting in silence

Saturday morning. 
Pure silence.

Today I am 1 week out from my bikini competition. I cannot believe it is here. I am so excited!!!! 

Today I am up early (dang internal clock) and basking in the joy of it all. My house is still all asleep and I am just beaming from ear to ear about this journey. 

Silence is 
It is a time of reflection and appreciation. 

It is a wonderful thing to be at peace with decisions and choices that have been made. My wise friend told me that sometimes you have to accept the result/outcome even though the means to get there were not what you wanted. 

When you have goals for yourself it is so important to follow them, sometimes you make changes in that path but always remember you should decide the path and course to take - it is your life - your dreams - your plan...

Being content is a very hard word and concept for me (ask my therapist- I struggle with that) but I feel I am living that. Content doesn't mean I stop trying but what that means is I am happy on my journey - the ups and downs, the highs and lows, the spots I have no clue on, you just keep on course. 

Silence is a new appreciation for me not just because of having kids but because my brain goes and goes and goes...slowing down and basking in these moments of silence is another thing I learned on this journey....mind body and soul need to be aligned to achieve happiness...and a balanced bikini! 

Today will soon be up and running soon but in the meantime I am going to continue enjoying this silence and peace... 

Wishing everyone a wonderful weekend and OMG 1 week out woo hoo!!!!! 

My path...

"What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?”
Romans 8:31 NIV

As I sit here 17 days from my first bikini competition I have received so much positive feedback so much praise so much support! 

What I didn't expect was the individuals who want to not support or point out what they don't like about what I am doing.. 

However, GOD has put me on this path. He has guided me in my steps in ways I would have never thought. I NEVeR thought about doing this - me on a stage in a bikini...what?????? No???? 

So why would I do it?? I answered that before ...one that allowed me 2 be FREE of every feeling that I would be my old self of 212lbs on one day! That was my mental break through on this. 

But what is his plan? His plan was for me to inspire others to be healthy to live a healthy lifestyle. To show as a women, a mom, a full time worker outside of the home that we can do this! That I can show people that hard work and determination and a BIG support team will get you through anything. I am a person I am only human..I have failed and gotten right back up and did it again. 

Another thing is I am stepping on that stage 100% appreciating my body and my self! I am letting the world know that extra skin exists, cellulite is there, I have stretch marks! I am a women who loves herself. Now if I can inspire, encourage help many people on this journey I have fulfilled the plan GOD had for me. Have you??? 

So before anyone slams me, disagrees with the path GOD has put me on...always remember the devil works in weird ways too...ponder that!!!! 

3 weeks out....21 days....

Today MARKS 3 weeks out...21 days... the amount of time that I have put in this is getting greater and greater and CLOSER...today my balanced bikini partner WAS so smart to do a full run through. I am the most UNGIRLY girl you will ever find. I love me some diamonds and shopping but make up - I don't wear it and I don't own any of it... So thank heavens for her and a lovely friend Shelby at the gym that helped with that...woo wee..

Spray tan check
Show bikinis check
HIGH heels check 
Hair check
Make up check
Jewelry check

The best part was having my hubs, my babies and several #bfitbeauties watching us!!! It was the first time having a full audience and it felt great to be able to beam down at them and KNOW there were just as proud of me and I was of myself.

This photo makes me so happy. It makes me feel secure in my body and gave me the ability to rid myself of the thoughts that I will wake up and be 200lbs again. I am embracing all that I am and have.

Now I can depict several areas that I still want to improve on but that isnt's stopping me from being happy this moment and to continue to be happy while I keep going.

I sent my photos to several people that have helped me so much on my journey and my cousin...who also competes and is helping with parts of my training sent me this.....

And boy is it true. This close to the deadline and the BIG SHOW I do not want to lose my ground - I want to take every step every measure to keep going.

Today is a happy moment for me and I am going to bask in the glory of it!!!

I have to give a big SHOUT out to the numerous people that have supported me on this journey: FIRST God to give me the ability and strength to do this, my husband for ALWAYS being my rock and loving me fat/fit and all the stages in between, my children for being understanding of my time and for not resisting the healthy eating around the house and for cheering me on non-stop, my mommy who loves and me and calls me beautiful daily and thinks I am perfect the way I am, BYRON my trainer - we have had our ups and downs however you amaze me by your support and overall approach to the stage presence and Hey my first show is where you started, Chad my wonderful cousin who has stepped in and helped me shine and see that my fat self is not returning, the #bfitbeauties and #bfitfamily - the amazing support and love that is felt each and every time I step in the gym or out in my bathing suit is so greatly appreciated, My dear friends/family thank you for still lvoing me as I eat out of tupperware, as I cancel plans (because I am good but the will power to be out and about sometimes is just too much for me) and your overall love and support for me.... I hope each and every one of you can be there to watch me grace the stage.. 

***If I missed anyone I am sorry but know that your love and support do not go unnoticed. 

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As we leave church tonight the word content pops in my head... Joy and happiness. 

Today we are 24 days out from my first (and now maybe not last) bikini competition.

We had a leg day with my balanced bikini friend...it felt good. Along with my solo cArdio in my pjs in my living room. 

And today at this moment I am happy with my body and my progress. Don't let that this even think that I am stopping...I am already talking about future goals...but that can wait...

At this moment this time I am happy. 

Just be happy...

The four week program at church is trust Jesus trust just Jesus...we all know how hard it is for me to TRUST and then to be happy in the now ...wow I am growing up ...mind body and soul 

Sometimes you have to reflect

Like in everyday life we - okay ME - tend to not focus on the NOW or how far you have come... I am a planner by nature and what that means in default is I seem to miss the present, the good of right now... 

This journey of a healthy lifestyle or what I refer to as the balanced bikini has and is the most amaZing time of my life. Each milestone keeps getting better and better. I am not a wine drinker but I feel I am aging like a nice bottle !! 

As I approach 35 this year I couldn't be happier with the direction my life is going. There are UPS and downs but all in all I am content... 

Today I decided to make a goals list..1 year 3 year 5 year... And I was excited to see so many that will improve my lifestyle, my relationship with my husband, my children and overall! It is a lifestyle for sure. 

But all that can vanish in a minute if you forget how far you have come. 

I started looking thru an old album (yes one that you actually printed out haha).. 
Here it is 11 years in the making. I am so proud of myself. At this very moment I am happy with my progress. Am I done ??? Heck no... I have fallen in love with working out, with eating right! 
So I can still love and appreciate myself and how far I have come while still knowing I want to keep up a balanced bikini life!! 

Hey I never thought this soon to be 35 would be this good! 

Unplug every day

As I was walking around the $150 dollar target store - I enjoy walking around every aisle - I found this amazing book! Everyone should try this.

Ironically I am on social media haha. But this book gives you a challenge to Unplug from electronics ....

So does anyone else want to join??? I guess we will need social media for sharing but it is worth it! 

This will allow me to engage more with my family . My friends. Myself. 

Here are a few of the days: 

Discover a new restaurant 
Watch a play 
Host a clothing swap 
Roll down a grassy hill 

Let's go....