One month at a time

We haven't even opened presents yet or celebrated the new year BUT I am starting my resolution now. I am pinning a monthly workout plan. Each month I am going to dedicate myself to doing the exercises a minimum of 3 days a week plus my cardio (I am training for another 1/2 marathon so running is my number one cardio right now along with mixing it up in spinning class). 

So what is my resolution? 

To be the healthiest, fitest, happiest person I can be. 

Along those lines to be more specific is to stop fighting the same 10lbs ALWAYS! 
Firm up my tummy and arms - the ass can stay haha! 
Enjoy myself, be happy with myself! 

So if you are on Pinterest please join me on this journey! I will also find more healthy recipes And keep as true to clean eating as I can handle. On that note I believe that I should only cook one meal a night so it has to be kid and hubby approved! 

So here is to me going from the right to the left - tan is the new thin, right?....

A break

After the 1/2 marathon and endless back pain the week before I have made myself take a week off (minus the 2 mile walk through the Christmas lights). It is giving me much needed rest. This week I have enjoyed a walk through the lights with my fam bam, a night with my mother getting our hair did, a dinner date with my hubs and kids, a night home on the couch watching shows and snuggling with my son. 

All in all I am happy with my decision to just be..... Mentally and physically I feel rested, stronger and ready to start my training once again. 

Yes I already signed up for the next 1/2 marathon! So excited to train harder and longer to beat my time. 

This time around I am focusing on steadiness long with endurance. I have already downloaded a 1/2 marathon training schedule - that starts Monday. Along with "runner" foods.

I have recruited another partner in this as well! Running with someone is one of the 10 amendments of runners (per Pinterest of course). 

So here is to rest then on to kicking my o ass. 

I did it!!!

Well you might not have known but I have been training for my first ever 1/2 marathon. 

The idea of this is beyond what I can even think about. I was like "never" will I run/jog I can't stand that stuff - well once again that NEVER word bit me on the ass.

With training for this over the last few months I have come to enjoy jogging - I am not a runner yet... I enjoy being outside, I enjoy pounding the pavement (it is helpful with good friends, great music and cute workout clothes!!!) 

When I got this notion it went from jogging a little a week to ensuring I hit 50-60 miles a month to hey let's do a 1/2 marathon.

I found one local and all DiVAS!!! The only goal I set for myself was to finish it before the deadline of 3 hours and 30 minutes.

So as the morning of the big day approached and I got my set of our matching outfits on the nerves started kicking in.

 But no matter what I know I had to finish this race! 

This is my good friend and she has been with me since the beginning (and the only one who signed up). We were ready to go with our matching Duck Dynasty shirts (if you haven't seen that show please catch it on a&e).

Well as we started I was doing great the first several miles. I was enjoying myself and knew I could do this....however my nerves were getting me. My stomach was not doing well and it started affecting me. I kept going and going.

With each mile maker I just wanted it to end!! My legs and back were fine but I was ready to see that 13 mile marker! 

On mile 7 - my hubs and children made me so happy - they were on the route waving and sending encouragement! I love them! 

Back through 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, and there was 13 THANK YOU lord!!! We picked up our pace and baby we made it! 

I made it!!! I crossed that finish line at 3:12:20 - and I am so happy with it! I finished !! (Now of course my brain goes to the next one and how I can improve).

So all in all I made it, we made it! It made me feel so excited and PROud of myself that I accomplished this! 

Look at my boys face!!! 
Look at the medal...

Now on to Etsy to find me some 13.1 items....


At this point in my life I am finding out I need to find peace. Peace in myself, peace in others, peace in this world of mine.

Romans 12:18 if possible, on your part, live at peace with everyone. 

Peace so how do I find it??? 

Right here....
Spending time with my family of 8. They make me smile, they make laugh, they make me feel true everlasting love - pure joy pure peace.

My inner peace quest is a tough one - especially for my all in all out personality. I can go from over the top happy to so sad in no time flat.

Another item that brings me peace is putting my country station up high and singing off key to Luke Bryan - that's my kind of party!

I am learning to embrace peace - admit that I want it and admit when I don't have it.

Shit getting older makes you think and appreciate stuff so much for.

So as I am listening to Luke right now and finishing this email I look forward to finding internal peace and maybe a night out to shake what I got!!! 

Learning about yourself

Well I have been vacant from this blog once again and I am starting to find out why.

I have been in therapy for about 7 years. I started going when I was having infertility issues, then it was I had two kids, then it was me adjusting to being a wife/a mom/ a full time worker, the list goes on but never really got in to me more of just how I handle whatever was going on in my life at that moment.

Well now for the first time we are talking about ME and man does it suck. Breaking down yourself as a person means you have to face why you do things - things that I have done for years. 

Well out of these intense sessions I cry but most of all I am getting an understanding of me 

So one of the first things that I have learned is that I live in a black and white world...who knew??? Yet I wear those colors on almost a daily basis.

But really what that means is I am an all or nothing person. I don't know how to just be, to just kind of, to just be good enough. 

For example this blog when I started really getting into it - I was writing 5 times a week, I had link ups, I participated in every link up, I did the nail polish exchange, I had ads, I was a clever girl and I was not going to stop....Well I did stop because I found a job that I just loved and so instead of just casually writin when I felt the need (ok I have a few times this year ex: this one haha) I just stopped....dead in my tracks - I didn't write, I didn't read any thing. For me I just didn't do anything at all.

Point two - I wanted a Michael Kors watch. Soooo as of date I now have.....
 Yes that's right 4 in one year ...nothing small.

And truly the list can go on but the funny part is I am realizing that I do that - now others in my life (and they have told me) see it but I didn't it I was just living my life.

Now I don't think or now if I even want to change this - I like living in my black and white world but just maybe with this therapy I can live some parts in the middle zone. 

And with appointments every two weeks we can only hope....