Giving Up Control...trying at least in some areas

OK today is it. I woke up barely able to breath. I fought through it and got the kids to school and my first meeting of the day BUT by 8 am I was out the door to urgent care - my health was warning me.

Isn't this attractive?
all of my meds
I got to urgent care and not a soul in the place (thank you LORD). I went right in and the prognosis was..... Bronchitis! I had this as a child ALL the time and I am still pegged with it as an adult. I knew from the burning chest, wheezing and shortness of breath.

He gave me TWO shots in the tushy and two breathing machine sessions and I was sent on my way to get more meds. Steroids, antibiotics and inhaler! I am feeling listless, tired and just at little overwhelmed. SO times like this help me decide what is the most important - ME and my family!

So - you ask - where is the Giving Up Control part??? Yes Yes I am getting there.

Here are the areas I have decided TODAY that I can live with out doing and putting more stress on myself and my family and my time:

- Coaching/Team mom - done for now! Once the kids get older and have more choices and thoughts of what they want I will step in again. BUT for now I am done (and that means hubby will be happy). I don't need to control the team, the schedule ANYTHING. I just show up, sit down and veg out!!! I am liking that - can you have wine on the field????
 
- Side work - I take on "side" work projects to help others, to EVENTUALLY earn extra money but I am done. I enjoy it but it isn't enough to keep me up at nights, away from my family or worry about it. The hardest part on this is going to tell the few companies that I signed up with that I can not do it any longer. I hope they understand (again out of my control).  
- My hubby's money - we get allowance EACH of us - do what you want with it I DON'T CARE. Ahh this is feeling so good - release!
 - Kids clothing - Okay I am easing up on this. We do pick out the outfits at night but if she wants one shirt verses the other so be it - EXCEPT for pictures and big events - I am just not caring, really I am letting loose here. As for the boy anything Tony Hawk and he doesn't care anyways.
 
- Trying to be friends with people - If you are my friend you are with me no matter what. If we strike up a conversation and it doesn't come natural - see ya! Family, Friends, Acquaintances, Co-Workers, I don't care who you are - I finally at the age of 32 realize if it isn't going to work it just isn't!!! Case closed (yeah right I am a  big softie you be nice to be and I crack :)).

Things that I am going to try!!

- Asking for help! In order to give up control even more I need to start asking or accepting help. PEOPLE I need help this nation of MY LIFE can not continue on this path. NOW let me clarify my hubby is the BIGGEST help ever and I can easily ask my mother and brother for things ALL the time  - hey they are my fam! However, with other friends and family I feel reluctant to ask for help. WHY you ask because I don't like to 1) need help 2) be a burden on others. So watch out people I am going to be asking for help!

So Tuesday you are doing wonders for me!! Watch out!!

However, something that isn't going to the waste side is my love for dressing nice. So despire the way I feel I atleast wanted to look nice. NOTE: I even curled my hair today but FAIL on that. The outfit is a dress from JC Penny and the belt is another wonderful birthday present from my BFF.  I look a little down in the eyes - yikes.
 

3 comments:

  1. Looking good! Man alive you really can pull yourself together when sick. I would be lying on my death bed and letting the world know it.

    Yay for giving up control! I need to take this advice. While I was putting away laundry today I thought "I am going to back off and let them pick their own clothes." Yay for us on that one lol.

    Hope with all that med you feel better soon!

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  2. Hey girl, thanks for joining in on the Friday Chaos blog party! So glad you linked up with us, and I get to follow you! Wahoo!
    I also wanted to let you know about a coffee mug swap that I am hosting. It is a different spin on the idea that lets you get to know other bloggers better. And you get a pretty new mug just in time for fall! Score! Today is the last day to sign up and I would absolutely love to have you. I am hoping to get 50 swappers, the more the merrier! Here is where you can get all the deets and sign up to join: http://yellowumbrelladesign.blogspot.com/2012/08/coffee-mug-swap.html
    Love bloggin' with ya. Talk to you soon :D
    Dalayna

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  3. Hope you feel better soon
    Thanks for linking up at the Friday Chaos this week
    Have a nice weekend :)
    Kerry

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