YEAH I am now ready for the holiday. The Christmas tree is up, the lights are up and the presents are wrapped. And we have decided that we will be hosting the dinner at our house (I am excited - Tyson not so much he he because he has to clean everything).
It is starting to feel a lot like Christmas. We also have plans to go to the Mission Inn and also go see the lights in Brea with Kristyn and Byron!
This season brings everyone closer, love grows and heals all. I want to thank him for everything.
Well this week has been amazing. I have been off all week and enjoyed myself very much, alone time with my hubby and catching up on all of the DVR shows. THANK HEAVENS for preschool being open during the week!
Almost all of the family
Thanksgiving was such a great day. We spent it with a lot of our family. It was so much fun to be with them. The holidays are just so fun for me - because family is the most important item in life. Food, Family and Fun = THANKSGIVING.
I want to live my life full of love not drama. I have either been part of the drama, brought on the drama or that crap follows me - either way I am moving on. I have spent the majority of my life dwelling and focusing on the items/people/situations that need to be fixed or are not working easily. Well I have too many things/people/situations that are positive, perfect (in my eyes), caring in return and never ONCE do you have to double guess what you say,feel or hear! I have caused, created and generated and even avoided most of the problems - however from this moment I am not looking back. My true friends and true family know and love me for me! They would never turn on me or tell 1/2 truths so others would side with them.
I love myself, I love my husband, I love my children, I love my mom, I love my brother, I love my grandparents, I love my aunts/uncles/cousins/nieces/nephews/sisters/in-laws, I love my friends (the ones that really fall under the family category), my book clubbers, I love you!!!
It is funny how it takes a not so happy moment for you to realize that you need to hold your beliefs tight, your love even tighter and your spirits high at all times.
30 is turning into the year for self discovery. I have lost a great deal but oh man I have gained so much more.
"People come into your life and people leave it... you just have to trust that that life has a road mapped out for you."
I can list so many examples for this (now that I have seen some of the other points on my map)
- Nick - my first husband - he came into my life and held a space for 7 years. We separated and at that moment I didn't know what to do... Well in walks two people that I could not live my life with out.
- Erin - my best friend - she came into my life at a moment that I cherish at all times. We went through a lot together, held each others hands, and helped the hearts to heal and on that path found ourselves.
- Tyson - my hubby now :) - he came into my life when I didn't want love or anyone. He showed me what TRUE HAPPINESS was and is!
- My kids. Opened my eyes and heart to the possibility of TRUE MIRACLES.
The list can go on and on. I have learned people come people go but never live with regrets. I don't regret anything in my life. I have learned from the pain, I have grown from love and from the truth!
At the ripe old age of 30 I am still learning. I forgive but never forget. I learn and grow!
Just because I have said, done or liked things one way doesn't mean that I continue to think and operate that way. One who admits to a mistake and grows from it is a person that is evolving!
Well this week has gone by fast woo hoo! While I sit here listening to a Webinar about the new elections a lot is about to change again. CHANGE - I get a little (okay maybe a lot) scared of it. But I have this great quote " Things do not change, we change." - Henry David Thoreau. CHANGE we all do it, it happens when we do and do not want it but the fact is that there is a change.
I want to be in front of the change. I want to make my own change, my own choices and chances. So as we look at the end of 2010 and the beginning of 2011 so close I want to concentrate on my personal and professional goals. I have already started my list. Personal that one is easy (easy to list anyway). For the professional one I have ideas and thoughts of what I want but I am actually meeting with my boss next week for lunch to go over my professional goals and what the company thinks (fingers crossed on this one)! I love my job and I love what I do but I really want to learn, grow and do more!
As soon as I finish my list I will post it for everyone to see - and hold me to it as well!!
So I am challenging myself to change and I am challenging everyone else to do the same! What are your goals?
Well I started my day by putting on a nice dress and making myself feel pretty again. With all of my working out I have lost 5 lbs and I want to see it stay off and keep toning on my way. Today also was the day that I changed my quote on my work white board - I have a thing for quotes. I like things that are real and inspiring for me and others.
"Things do not change, we change." - Henry David Thoreau
Well that statement is so true yet so hard to absorb all the time. I am a person that fears change however when I finally adjust or do the change I can tell it was meant to be.
The most recent change in my life was my babies. We have had a change in our daycare situation however it is working out so nice. They are happy and healthy and that is what counts!
So why did I label this post Live Laugh Love. WELL because that is what I want to focus on.
Live - Living my life to the fullest with the ones that I want to be with and the ones that want to be here. Family and friends that should have been family.
Laugh - ENJOY... Laugh at yourself, laugh, be happy. Control what you can and let the other crap go!!!
Love - MAN oh MAN do I have love around me. Love from my wonderful husband, my beautiful kids, my close family, my friends that are family and you know what LOVE for myself!!!!!
Again I will tell you 30 is going to be a great year!!!